back up for a min....

I have to back up a little bit i need to explain my mother to you.....my mom worked for Sears for years before i was born..when i was a baby she was accidently poisoned by an insecticide while at work, it ate her nerve endings and really affected her health my mother was diagonsed with agoraphobia.. (fear of being alone,and leaving the house) she took xanax for this for some 25 yrs or more..with counseling and medication she was able to do some things but not much...she depended alot on others one being my father..he did all the grocery shopping and paid all the bills my mother never worked again and she could barely drive a car ..once in a great while she would drive ,usually after she had just enough alcohol to relax her...later in my blog i will tell you about when my dad passed away and i literally took his place ....Which wasn't a good idea as at this time i was in the peak of my addiction to meth...she was also diagnosed with COPD and emphasyma she was on oxygen the last 5yrs or so of her life....now you have a little back ground on my mom....and i will now continue with my story..next